home sweet home.

After three emotional years of waiting to be parents, I suddenly found myself at home constantly after we had our first child in April 2012 and my concept of home began changing almost as suddenly as our lives.

Everything in my world was instantly contained within the four walls of our home and this drastic change brought the inevitable evolution of what "home" became to me.

Home:

refuge, prison, workplace, sanctuary. 

I realized that home is so much more than whatever the walls that physically contain it look like.  It is anywhere you and your family are, anywhere they need you and you meet that need. 

Being home changed me too.  In a way  I’d never experienced before, my life wasn’t my own.  I didn’t slip into my new roles as smoothly as I’d anticipated and the change was, at times, surprisingly painful.  Things that had once defined the time I spent at home faded from the forefront and I lived most of my days in ‘survival mode’. I’d never had someone need me so desperately; it’s a beautiful and overwhelming experience. 

My concept of home continues to evolve with each day's experience. 

And so,  I’m trying to capture the beauty, inconsistency and uniqueness that makes each house a home.